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we all need a place to express ourselves with abandon. freedom is such a perfect word. it means we can leave so much behind. we can get rid of all that holds us back. because so much keeps us from being the person we KNOW we can and should be.

i have a million ideas and thoughts running through my head about ministry. i pray for a space and time to express those. maybe this is it. i'm tired of persecution and judgment in the church. its ridiculous that we decide who's in and who's out based on a 4 random sentences in the Bible. it is SO obvious when I read the Bible with a careful and educated eye that those sentences were so much a part of the culture of the 1st century. But even so, even if i'm wrong, i would much rather err on the side of GRACE during my life. I don't think God's going to send me to hell because I loved someone unconditionally.

I wish I was part of a church who accepted everyone. I wish I could help in a church community who didn't assume everyone believed what they did.

But it's funny...even in the midst of this, I'm loving this community. I've had the best weekend in a while. Saturday we had an absolute blast shopping at the Bible outlet place in Vero Beach. We spent $230 on books and curriculum that would have originally costs $700. Church was amazing this morning. However, I read my Emerging Worship book by Dan Kimball during the sermon but the rest was great! I LOVE my kids! I get paid to yell with them, play with them, make them laugh, and best of all...shower God's love on them. I LOVE IT!

Thank you so much God that my heart has opened recently. I'll be forever grateful for this season in my life.


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Why Some Experienced Clergy (and Lay People) Have a Hard Time When Younger Clergy Take Renewal Leave

This is a guest post from my very own dad! He's a United Methodist pastor serving in Bend, Oregon. I enjoy chatting church leadership with my dad and it's fascinating to see how our generational differences bring different perspectives to our calling as pastor. We need each generation to walk with each other as we figure it out in this new world. We've been reflecting lately as I finished up a renewal leave and he prepares to retire this June. 
By David Beckett
I fall into the category of experienced clergy which is a polite way of saying I am old. I’ve been pastoring for nearly 40 years. When I was a young pastor my role models were mostly white males who presented an image of success that equated with dedication, overwork, and sacrifice. My first senior pastor talked about the 20 hr/wk he invested in sermon preparation. And he expected his staff to work beyond their stated hours. During those three years of full time seminary and a large youth group I put in up to 80 hr/…

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There's competition in every industry. Some get promoted over others. Some work incredibly hard but their gifts go unnoticed. Others do good work and people assume they're fine but underneath, they feel like they could never be honest about how hard life is in this season. People spend more energy figuring out how they measure up in a work culture instead of doing the actual work.

Competition itself implies there are two sides.

I remember field days at my elementary school in Alaska. The half-frozen spring ground was covered with clumps of dirty gray snow. Jackets were thrown on the ground as the fourth graders tried to beat the fifth graders at tug of war. Rope burns were shrugged off as sweat dripped down our young faces. We were determined to beat those fifth graders. Our pride was on the line.

Whether you're a fourth grader or an ad manager at a fancy marketing agency or a senator trying out for attorney general, competition runs deep in our DNA.

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99 sheep

Reading Matthew 18:10-14 on this cloudy Anchorage summer morning. Parable of the Lost Sheep. A guy owns 100 sheep. They belong to him. These sheep are loyal and depend on their owner for everything. But then one wanders away. I wonder if this sheep wandered on purpose or accident?

The guy leaves the 99 sheep grazing on the hillside to look for the sheep who got lost. One word in verse 13 jumped out to me. "Andifhe finds [the sheep]...he is happier about that one sheep than about the 99 that did no wander off." IF he finds it. This guy who owns the sheep probably knows the hillside very well and knows his sheep's behavioral patterns. But he may not find this lost sheep. 

When someone wanders off, it's up to them if they want to get found. 

When it comes to our connection to God, some of us may wander on accident. Or on purpose. 

We wait for someone to rescue us. Bring us back. Make it okay. But we have to turn towards the one rescuing us. God will leave the other 99 sheep…